Another Year Your Gone...

Today I make another tribute to my mom.....

Today is Thanksgiving and most people are being Thankful for everything around them as well as me. However there is one thing that I am missing and am thankful that that she was in my life at one time, My mom. Two years ago today, November 26, 2007, she passed away.

This is a tribute to my mom. There are so many songs out there that remind me of her day to day. Music has helped me through this pain and as well as all of mygreat friends that are in my life. I thank the song writers out there who let their music be heard even if it is about a painful experience.

Sometimes a song can touch a nerve

That takes me back to you

When I pick up my old guitar

And I play your favorite tune

Every now and then,

some little thingI've buried comes bubblin' up

And once in a while, you feel close enough to touch
I miss you a little since you've been gone

A few little memories keep hangin' on

I miss you a little, I guess you could say

A little too much, a little too often

A little more every day

-----John Michael Montgomery: I Miss You a Little

Walking down a hall that day, it felt like there was nothing around me, I was numb, walking on air. I couldn't see the walls or doors passing by. I wanted to run and never stop. That was the day you were gone. The ride home seemed to last forever. And then I was home, back in your house. It was empty, an abandoned feeling lingered. To know the truth of what had happened here just a few days back sent a sharp pain through my body that I will never forget.

There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you. Some days are better than others and then there are days that feel like I can't go on. I remember how strong you were and asked how this happened to you of all people. It seemed as though you were the strongest person I knew. The day you passed, two years ago today, was the first day that I realized that life is not fair and life has a way of knocking you down when you least expect it.

Life ain't always beautiful

Sometimes it's just plain hard

Life can knock you down, it can break your heart
Life ain't always beautiful

You think you're on your way

And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day
But the struggle makes you stronger

And the changes make you wise

And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time
No,life aint always beautiful

Tears will fall sometimes

Life aint always beautiful

But it's a beautiful ride
Life aint always beautiful

Some days I miss your smile

I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles
And I wish for just one minute

I could see your pretty face

Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way

-----Gary Allen: Life Ain't Always Beautiful

When I think of the days when you were here it makes me cry, because I miss your hugs, because I miss your voice, because I miss everything about you, but because most of all, you'll never be here again. Then I start to think about the days that you were never supposed to miss...the boys' birthdays, my birthday, the holidays, my wedding day and I know your looking down on us, watching all of these events as theytake place but its not the same. And its funny that when it rains I think of you more because your tears are falling down.

Well my little girl is 23,

I walk her down the aisle.

It's a shame her Mom can't be here now,To see her lovely smile.

They throw the rice, I catch her eye,

As the rain starts coming down.

She takes my hand; says: "Daddy don't be sad,'

Cos I know Mama's watching now."
"And there's holes in the floor of Heaven"

And her tears are pouring down."

That's how you know she's watching,"Wishing she could be here now."

An' sometimes when I'm lonely,"

I just remember she can see.

"Yes, there's holes in the floor of Heaven,"And she's watching over you and me."

-----Steve Wariner: Holes in the Floor of Heaven

I know everything happens for a reason and I have my own theories of why this happened...why this happened to you. They say what doesn't kill you makes you strongerand believe me there are days when this almost kills me but I know that I am getting stronger and as more days pass they say it gets easier. I would like to know when this will happen but time heals all or at least helps to heal. I wish I could go forward in time to see if its true but then I wish I could go back to see you one more time.

Last Night I had a crazy dream Wish was granted just for me,

It could be for anything

I didn't ask for money, or a mansion in Malibu

I simply wished for one more day with you
One more day,

One more time One more sunset maybe I'd be satisfied

But then again; I know what it would do

Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you

-----Diamond Rio: One More Day

I thank everyone who has been there for me at that time and through the years. I know without some people I would not be here today and I thank them and words will neverexplain how gratful I am to them.

Sitting with Mama, alone in her bedroom

She opened her eyes, and then squeezed my hand

She said, I have to go now, my time here is over

And with her final words she tried to help me understand

Mama whispered softly, time will ease your pain

Life's about changing, nothing ever stays the same
And she said, how can I help you to say goodbye

It's okay to hurt, and it's okay to cry

Come let me hold you, and I will try

How can I help you to say goodbye

-----Patty Loveless: How Can I Help You to Say Good Bye

And I again say that you were the strongest person I had ever known. How did this happen? But no matter what I will always wonder how it would be if you were here.Where would I be? Would I be as strong as I am now?

Sunny days seem to hurt the most

Wear the pain like a heavy coat

I feel you everywhere I go

I see your smile, I see your face

I hear you laughing in the rain

Still can't believe you're gone
It ain't fair you died too young

Like a story that had just begun

The death tore the pages all away

God knows how I miss you

All the hell that I've been through

Just knowing no one could take your place

Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most

I wear the pain like a heavy coat

The only thing that gives me hope

Is I know I'll see you again someday

-----Kenny Chesney: Who You'd Be Today

There are time when I can feel her around me. I know she's watching, helping me to be a stronger person. And some may think I'm crazy for saying that but somethings are too coinsidental. I will be in my own world thinking about things and Holes in the Floor of Heaven will play on a radio and thats the song I associatemost with her. Its not a song that is played often anymore. Other times just little things happen and I know it her telling me, "its ok" and "I'm here" She is makingme a better stronger person still just like she did when she was alive. She was the greatest woman in my life.

Wish I didn't know now what I didn't know then
Against the windWe were runnin' against the wind

We were young and strong, we were runnin'Against the wind
The years rolled slowly past

And I found myself aloneSurrounded by strangers I thought were my friends

I found myself further and further from my home

And I guess I lost my way

There were oh so many roads

I was living to run and running to live

Never worryied about paying or even how much I owed

Moving eight miles a minute for months at a time

Breaking all of the rules that would bend

I began to find myself searchingSearching for shelter again and again
Against the wind

A little something against the wind

I found myself seeking shelter sgainst the wind
Well those drifter's days are past me now

I've got so much more to think about

Deadlines and commitments

What to leave in, what to leave out
Against the wind

I'm still runnin' against the wind

I'm older now but still runnin' against the wind

Well I'm older now and still runnin'

Against the wind

-----Bob Segar: Against the Wind

Remember your mom always! She is the only one that you will ever have. And no one can take her place! I Love you MOM!